Going through chemotherapy is a lot like playing "Would you rather?" One has to make choices in how they will expend their energies, even more than normal.
For example, a single mom going through chemo with teenagers and young adults might need to use her energies to work to support her children, who are able to help her out more around the house. They do not need her constant care and are even able to care for her. Thus she would choose to use her energies to work, and then collapse once she gets home.
Someone who loves to exercise might use their energies to get back to running. That is obviously not me.
For me, I chose to save my energies for my children once they got home from school. I would rest most of the time during the day so that I would have enough energy to help with homework. Since we are not homeschooling through this, helping with homework helps me to feel connected with them. They will sometimes say that they miss homeschool. However, I think they would sometimes rather me not oversee their homework, as many corrections as I find for them to make.
Yes, as a result of chemotherapy, I have had to make choices about how to expend my energies. Sometimes I have been kept in check by a sweet lady at church telling me I am doing too much.
However, we all make choices everyday about how to expend our energies and our time. Though we might sometimes feel like things or people are stealing our time and energies, honestly, we choose how to spend them. During this time, my list of things to dedicate my energies to has been short. I am looking forward to the time I have more energy and can do more things, but I will still have to choose how I use it.
So what would you rather??
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